I’ve hit the wall today. After months of staying positive, or at least giving it a real try, I have come up against the very real fear that nothing is going to change fast enough and worse yet, that there is nothing I can do about it. Every step forward requires sixteen steps backward and the waiting has become unbearable. That said, however, I’m left with no choice but to keep trying.
I’m sure not feeling good for the past week isn’t helping. I’m on the mend but now Tessa is threatening to get it, and of course Tori had it before me, so this shows no sign of doing anything but dragging on. I hate it when I get like this because the Gemini in me takes that whole twin thing to its bickering best. No matter how depressed I am there is always that counter voice telling me to get up and that others have it just as bad or worse. What I would give to shut that voice up at least for a day.
I’m still certain that I am on the right path. I know I am doing everything I can and pursuing every opportunity and that is all I can do. If things are destined to get worse before they get better, then there will be no stopping it. My tears aren’t going to change anything. I must have faith that somehow we will survive, because at the moment that’s all I’ve got.
So, forgive this pity party. I can only assume some of you have attended similar parties before and can relate. This will pass just as other hard times have passed; it’s just hard to see when you are in the thick of it.
A friend says there’s no such thing as a bad day. Some are just better than others. Hope that’s true for you.
struggle is draining, and you’ve been pushing so hard for so long. praying something breaks soon, and hope you feel better physically for starters! may the wall start to crumble, at least enough to climb over … love you and hang in there.
love you right back!
(((((hugs))))) I think everyone should be allowed to wallow now and again
Xx
love you Bridgey
This too shall pass.
That’s what I always say to myself over and over again when a bad day hits.
And it did, but it was a rough one.
some days the best thing I can do is just leave a HUG in comments. Today is one of those days. Thank you for sharing at the Thursday Favorite Things hop xo P.S. the new giveaway started Friday
Hi Bridget, You might find some comfort from this post, I did http://responsiveuniverse.wordpress.com/2013/02/16/is-your-energy-spirit-and-mood-off-it-is-totally-normal/
Take care
Catherine
Thanks Catherine,
I’ll check it out.